Archive for June, 2008

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red snow

June 21, 2008

She looked out the window.

Looks like it is going to snow soon, she said to herself. Better get myself ready for it when it comes.

She got up from her chair. Her rocking chair. Lines formed on her forehead, between her eyes, for a brief moment. She reached to brace herself, holding on to the edge of the window, shifting her weight. Her other hand touched lightly on her thigh. She applied slight pressure, the lines returning to her face again.

Squinting, she looked out the window again. The trees, now bare, shook as if cold. Yes, it is cold, she thought to herself. I must start preparing.

Slowly, she stretches her body straight, straining to put the full weight of her skinny frame on the two limbs beneath it.

One step at a time, she told herself. One step at a time. I cannot hurry, but I must not dally.

As quickly as she could manage to move her feeble body, she half-limped towards the other end of the room. One step. Two steps. And she fell with a loud thud.

Squeezing her eyes shut, she perked her ears. Nothing. A small breath escaped her chapped lips.

Putting all her strength into her small palms, she pushed herself off the timber floor. It took almost all her energy just to stand on her shaky legs.

Just a few more steps, she reminded herself. Just a few more.

The first flake of snow hit her window. She looked, aghast. And as she turned her head abruptly to look at the door just a few steps away, she lost her balance, and fell with another thud. One much louder than the one before, she was sure of it.

She didn’t bother to get up this time. She heard a holler coming from downstairs, followed by the heavy footsteps up the timber staircase. A precious droplet fell from her eye as she let her energy drain away.

The snow started to fall, gently painting the landscape in shades of white and grey. And as her husband left the room, she looked up at the window, now painted with droplets of red.

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Sun, set

June 20, 2008

It’s sunset, you say.

I know. I know nothing more. The sun, it has set. It marks the end of the day. It marks the start of bitter coldness. It marks the coming of darkness.

Sun, don’t set. Don’t leave me to fumble in the shadows.

I know you. You are kind. You are warm and fuzzy when I fall sick. You give me life, hope, dreams. You shine upon me, and I know you love me.

But now you leave me, you leave me here. Here where all things turn grey. Here where shadows play. Here.. here..

Sun, don’t set. I cannot do this alone.

But you don’t listen. You slowly disappear behind the horizon. You tell me you can’t stay.

And it feels like the shadows are swallowing me whole. My hopes and dreams trailing behind you, drifting further and further away from me. I no longer know them, they seem so foreign to me. They linger for no more than a second, and disappear into mist.

It’s sunset. It’s sunset, you say.